the bold blaze in your depths
rejoice over everything.
be glad. be delighted, elated, and bowled over with joy!
frolic freely, hop, hope, dance on the dare, cheer, champion the little ones, revel in the riotous light.
invoke god without ceasing. pray with passion. whatever you do, do not quench the spirit.
take care not to douse or dampen the bold blaze in your depths.
jump into life. hold fast to it.
give thanks for everything.
for everything, even the most misshapen and misunderstood,
is the disguise of the divine.
-susan virginia hull
real talk: i've been sad lately. i'm struggling with some things that are deep and difficult. i often feel a bit silly for struggling with the things that i do, given how outrageously blessed and privileged i am. (plus, i recognize that my emotions are intensified by pregnancy hormones!) but my pain is legitimate; it is real and wide for me. i've been working a bit with a therapist and trying to learn about myself and create some changes. it's hard work, but i can see how it is beautiful work. i believe in its fruits. the struggle is the disguise of the divine. there will be beauty for ashes.
and amidst the peppering of significant struggle, there is so much happiness in my life. i'm so grateful for moses, who reminds me every day to frolic freely and be delighted and elated. seriously, this kid is bowled over with joy by the simplest things, every single day. i think these couple of pictures capture how he exudes wonder and gladness and how it is contagious for ian and i! (and they are a sneak peek of our christmas card photos!)
i'm remembering the bold blaze in my depths and continuing to focus on gratitude. life is really beautiful, in all its shades of good and hard.