woof. what a week.
the past eight days have been, to be blunt, pretty hellish.
(my life is outrageously good and i am tremendously privileged and my hardships are so trivial compared to so many others’ - but they are still real for me and this week was just seriously rough.)
little mo had surgery last thursday. he was born with an abnormality that we knew (since he was only days old) needed to be surgically repaired, so we knew this was coming - but nothing could have prepared us for it all. (and we are definitely not out of the woods yet on recovery - it may require a lot of time and possibly additional procedures). for six nights, all three of us were up every three to four hours for meds and nappy changes. there was a lot of worry about healing swirling around in our home, and everything in life got put on hold (and thus piled up!).
^^ the playroom at the hospital was pretty awesome...but our poor baby had some sad times there along with the fun play. ^^
on saturday, i started experiencing a pretty acute toothache. i made an appointment to see the dentist the following week and carried on doing my best to care for my boys. but the pain in my mouth escalated to the point that i was convinced i’d just have to go to the emergency room on sunday night. it was honestly the most excruciating pain i have ever felt in my life and was totally all-encompassing. because i’m pregnant there wasn’t much i could do about it with painkillers, and because it was the weekend we couldn’t find anywhere to go to get emergency dental care.
i honestly believe a miracle of answered prayers happened when the pain subsided in the wee hours of monday morning, and i was so, so grateful. i was able to see a dentist and get on an antibiotic to keep the pain of the abscess at bay until our baby is born (after which i will probably have to have a tooth pulled - eek!). i was so looking forward to a bit of semi-good sleep (between wake-ups to tend to moses) that night, but became really nauseated out of nowhere and then i started having lots of pregnancy-induced sciatica pain, and gosh, i was just down for the count. luckily ian could work from home, and he’s the best ever and took great care of me amidst everything else going on.
nights still aren’t uninterrupted, and worry about mo’s healing is still very much swirling around in our home, but we are finally coming out of the haze of a hellish week a bit - hurrah. moses is 95% back to his exuberant self, and i was so cheered yesterday by some spring buds popping up around the city, a walk through pastel notting hill cottages, a gathering with friends and a bit of london sunshine. ian and i have learned a lot from this experience and there is so, so much to be grateful for!
^^ our sweet friends came by yesterday afternoon and brought us our favourite bread and some awesome cards. ^^
i hope your week was better than mine! and here’s to a hopefully healthy future…!