i've been touched by these words this week.

 
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there's a rhythm in rush these days
where the lights don't move and the colors don't fade
leaves you empty with nothing but dreams
in a world gone shallow
in a world gone lean

sometimes there's things a man cannot know
gears won't turn and the leaves won't grow
there's no place to run and no gasoline
engine won't turn
and the train won't leave

but there is a truth and it's on our side
dawn is coming open your eyes
look into the sun as a new days rise

-jose gonzalez (i'm so in love with this song)

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tonight i can write the saddest lines.

write, for example,'the night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

the night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

tonight i can write the saddest lines.
i loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

through nights like this one i held her in my arms
i kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

she loved me sometimes, and i loved her too.
how could one not have loved her great still eyes.

tonight i can write the saddest lines.
to think that I do not have her. to feel that i have lost her.

to hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
and the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

what does it matter that my love could not keep her.
the night is shattered and she is not with me.

this is all. in the distance someone is singing. in the distance.
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

my sight searches for her as though to go to her.
my heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

the same night whitening the same trees.
we, of that time, are no longer the same.

i no longer love her, that's certain, but how i loved her.
my voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

another's. she will be another's. like my kisses before.
her voice. her bright body. her infinite eyes.

i no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe i love her.
love is so short, forgetting is so long.

because through nights like this one i held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

-pablo neruda

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this life is an experience in profound trust...to trust means to obey willingly without knowing the end from the beginning. to produce fruit, your trust in the lord must be more powerful and enduring than your confidence in your own personal feelings and experience.

when you pass through trials, [god] will help you. [his] support will generally come step by step, a portion at a time. while you are passing through each phase, the pain and difficulty that comes from being enlarged will continue. your father in heaven...loves you perfectly, and wants your eternal happiness even more than do you.

when the lord closes one important door in your life, he shows his continuing love and compassion by opening many other compensating doors through your exercise of faith. he will place in your path packets of spiritual sunlight to brighten your way. they often come after the trial has been the greatest [to] point the way to greater happiness, more understanding, and to strengthen your determination to accept and be obedient to his will.

-richard g. scott (this talk really resonated with me)